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of things you think wrong. Put back your watch. Diet your fever. Spread your wings; rise abovethe ground. It's never wrong to do that."She had listened eagerly, as I say; and it was her nature to understand quickly. "I wonder if youappreciate what you say. If you do, you take a great responsibility."第 151 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网"You frighten me a little, but I think I'm right," said Ralph, persisting in cheer."All the same what you say is very true," Isabel pursued. "You could say nothing more true. I'mabsorbed in myself--I look at life too much as a doctor's prescription. Why indeed should weperpetually be thinking whether things are good for us, as if we were patients lying in a hospital?Why should I be so afraid of not doing right? As if it mattered to the world whether I do right orwrong!""You're a capital person to advise," said Ralph; "you take the wind out of my sails!"She looked at him as if she had not heard him--though she was following out the train of reflexionwhich he himself had kindled. "I try to care more about the world than about myself--but I alwayscome back to myself. It's because I'm afraid." She stopped; her voice had trembled a little. "Yes,I'm afraid; I can't tell you. A large fortune means freedom, and I'm afraid of that. It's such a finething, and one should make such a good use of it. If one shouldn't one would be ashamed. And onemust keep thinking; it's a constant effort. I'm not sure it's not a greater happiness to be powerless.""For weak people I've no doubt it's a greater happiness. For weak people the effort not to becontemptible must be great.""And how do you know I'm not weak?" Isabel asked."Ah," Ralph answered with a flush that the girl noticed, "if you are I'm awfully sold!"The charm of the Mediterranean coast only deepened for our heroine on acquaintance, for it wasthe threshold of Italy, the gate of admirations. Italy, as yet imperfectly seen and felt, stretchedbefore her as a land of promise, a land in which a love of the beautiful might be comforted byendless knowledge. Whenever she strolled upon the shore with her cousin--and she was thecompanion of his daily walk--she looked across the sea, with longing eyes, to where she knew thatGenoa lay. She was glad to pause, however, on the edge of this larger adventure; there was such athrill even in the preliminary hovering. It affected her moreover as a peaceful interlude, as a hushof the drum and fife in a career which she had little warrant as yet for regarding as agitated, butwhich nevertheless she was constantly picturing to herself by the light of her hopes, her fears, herfancies, her ambitions, her predilections, and which reflected these subjective accidents in amanner sufficiently dramatic. Madame Merle had predicted to Mrs. Touchett that after their youngfriend had put her hand into her pocket half a dozen times she would be reconciled to the idea thatit had been filled by a munificent uncle; and the event justified, as it had so often justified before,that lady's perspicacity. Ralph Touchett had praised his cousin for being morally inflammable, thatis for being quick to take a hint that was meant as good advice. His advice had perhaps helped thematter; she had at any rate before leaving San Remo grown used to feeling rich. The consciousnessin question found a proper place in rather a dense little group of ideas that she had about herself,and often it was by no means the least agreeable. It took perpetually for granted a thousand goodintentions. She lost herself in a maze of visions; the fine things to be done by a rich, independent,generous girl who took a large human view of occasions and obligations were sublime in the mass.Her fortune therefore became to her mind a part of her better self; it gave her importance, gave hereven, to her own imagination, a certain ideal beauty. What it did for her in the imagination ofothers is another affair, and on this point we must also touch in time. The visions I have justspoken of were mixed with other debates. Isabel liked better to think of the future than of the past;第 152 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网but at times, as she listened to the murmur of the Mediterranean waves, her glance took abackward flight. It rested upon two figures which, in spite of increasing distance, were stillsufficiently salient; they were recognisable without difficulty as those of Caspar Goodwood andLord Warburton. It was strange how quickly these images of energy had fallen into the backgroundof our young lady's life. It was in her disposition at all times to lose faith in the reality of absentthings; she could summon back her faith, in case of need, with an effort, but the effort was oftenpainful even when the reality had been pleasant. The past was apt to look dead and its revivalrather to show the livid light of a judgement-day. The girl moreover was not prone to take forgranted that she herself lived in the mind of others--she had not the fatuity to believe she leftindelible traces. She was capable of being wounded by the discovery that she had been forgotten;but of all liberties the one she herself found sweetest was the liberty to forget. She had not givenher last shilling, sentimentally speaking, either to Caspar Goodwood or to Lord Warburton, and yetcouldn't but feel them appreciably in debt to her. She had of course reminded herself that she wasto hear from Mr. Goodwood again; but this was not to be for another year and a half, and in thattime a great many things might happen. She had indeed failed to say to herself that her Americansuitor might find some other girl more comfortable to woo; because, though it was certain manyother girls would prove so, she had not the smallest belief that this merit would attract him. But shereflected that she herself might know the humiliation of change, might really, for that matter, cometo the end of the things that were not Caspar (even though there appeared so many of them), andfind rest in those very elements of his presence which struck her now as impediments to the finerrespiration. It was conceivable that these impediments should some day prove a sort of blessing indisguise--a clear and quiet harbour enclosed by a brave granite breakwater. But that day could onlycome in its order, and she couldn't wait for it with folded hands. That Lord Warburton shouldcontinue to cherish her image seemed to her more than a noble humility or an enlightened prideought to wish to reckon with. She had so definitely undertaken to preserve no record of what hadpassed between them that a corresponding effort on his own part would be eminently just. Thiswas not, as it may seem, merely a theory tinged with sarcasm. Isabel candidly believed that hislordship would, in the usual phrase, get over his disappointment. He had been deeply affected--thisshe believed, and she was still capable of deriving pleasure from the belief; but it was absurd that aman both so intelligent and so honourably dealt with should cultivate a scar out of proportion toany wound. Englishmen liked moreover to be comfortable, said Isabel, and there could be littlecomfort for Lord Warburton, in the long run, in brooding over a self-sufficient American girl whohad been but a casual acquaintance. She flattered herself that, should she hear from one day toanother that he had married some young woman of his own country who had done more to deservehim, she should receive the news without a pang even of surprise. It would have proved that hebelieved she was firm--which was what she wished to seem to him. That alone was grateful to herpride.CHAPTER XXIIOn one of the first days of May, some six months after old Mr. Touchett's death, a small group thatmight have been described by a painter as composing well was gathered in one of the many roomsof an ancient villa crowning an olive-muffled hill outside of the Roman gate of Florence. The villa第 153 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网was a long, rather blank-looking structure, with the far-projecting roof which Tuscany loves andwhich, on the hills that encircle Florence, when considered from a distance, makes so harmoniousa rectangle with the straight, dark, definite cypresses that usually rise in groups of three or fourbeside it. The house had a front upon a little grassy, empty, rural piazza which occupied a part ofthe hill-top; and this front, pierced with a few windows in irregular relations and furnished with astone bench lengthily adjusted to the base of the structure and useful as a lounging-place to one ortwo persons wearing more or less of that air of undervalued merit which in Italy, for some reasonor other, always gracefully invests any one who confidently assumes a perfectly passive attitude-thisantique, solid, weather-worn, yet imposing front had a somewhat incommunicative character.It was the mask, not the face of the house. It had heavy lids, but no eyes; the house in realitylooked another way--looked off behind, into splendid openness and the range of the afternoonlight. In that quarter the villa overhung the slope of its hill and the long valley of the Arno, hazywith Italian colour. It had a narrow garden, in the manner of a terrace, productive chiefly of tanglesof wild roses and other old stone benches, mossy and sun-warmed. The parapet of the terrace wasjust the height to lean upon, and beneath it the ground declined into the vagueness of olive-cropsand vineyards. It is not, however, with the outside of the place that we are concerned; on this brightmorning of ripened spring its tenants had reason to prefer the shady side of the wall. The windowsof the ground-floor, as you saw them from the piazza, were, in their noble proportions, extremelyarchitectural; but their function seemed less to offer communication with the world than to defy theworld to look in. They were massively cross-barred, and placed at such a height that curiosity,even on tiptoe, expired before it reached them. In an apartment lighted by a row of three of thesejealous apertures--one of the several distinct apartments into which the villa was divided andwhich were mainly occupied by foreigners of random race long resident in Florence--a gentlemanwas seated in company with a young girl and two good sisters from a religious house. The roomwas, however, less sombre than our indications may have represented, for it had a wide, high door,which now stood open into the tangled garden behind; and the tall iron lattices admitted onoccasion more than enough of the Italian sunshine. It was moreover a seat of ease, indeed ofluxury, telling of arrangements subtly studied and refinements frankly proclaimed, and containinga variety of those faded hangings of damask and tapestry, those chests and cabinets of carved andtime-polished oak, those angular specimens of pictorial art in frames as pedantically primitive,those perverse-looking relics of medieval brass and pottery, of which Italy has long been the notquite exhausted storehouse. These things kept terms with articles of modern furniture in whichlarge allowance had been made for a lounging generation; it was to be noticed that all the chairswere deep and well padded and that much space was occupied by a writing-table of which theingenious perfection bore the stamp of London and the nineteenth century. There were books inprofusion and magazines and newspapers, and a few small, odd, elaborate pictures, chiefly inwater-colour. One of these productions stood on a drawing-room easel before which, at themoment we begin to be concerned with her, the young girl I have mentioned had placed herself.She was looking at the picture in silence.Silence--absolute silence--had not fallen upon her companions; but their talk had an appearance ofembarrassed continuity. The two good sisters had not settled themselves in their respective chairs;their attitude expressed a final reserve and their faces showed the glaze of prudence. They were第 154 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网plain, ample, mild-featured women, with a kind of business-like modesty to which the impersonalaspect of their stiffened linen and of the serge that draped them as if nailed on frames gave anadvantage. One of them, a person of a certain age, in spectacles, with a fresh complexion and a fullcheek, had a more discriminating manner than her colleague, as well as the responsibility of theirerrand, which apparently related to the young girl. This object of interest wore her hat--anornament of extreme simplicity and not at variance with her plain muslin gown, too short for heryears, though it must already have been "let out." The gentleman who might have been supposedto be entertaining the two nuns was perhaps conscious of the difficulties of his function, it being inits way as arduous to converse with the very meek as with the very mighty. At the same time hewas clearly much occupied with their quiet charge, and while she turned her back to him his eyesrested gravely on her slim, small figure. He was a man of forty, with a high but well-shaped head,on which the hair, still dense, but prematurely grizzled, had been cropped close. He had a fine,narrow, extremely modelled and composed face, of which the only fault was just this effect of itsrunning a trifle too much to points; an appearance to which the shape of the beard contributed not alittle. This beard, cut in the manner of the portraits of the sixteenth century and surmounted by afair moustache, of which the ends had a romantic upward flourish, gave its wearer a foreign,traditionary look and suggested that he was a gentleman who studied style. His conscious, curiouseyes, however, eyes at once vague and penetrating, intelligent and hard, expressive of the observeras well as of the dreamer, would have assured you that he studied it only within well-chosen limits,and that in so far as he sought it he found it. You would have been much at a loss to determine hisoriginal clime and country; he had none of the superficial signs that usually render the answer tothis question an insipidly easy one. If he had English blood in his veins it had probably receivedsome French or Italian commixture; but he suggested, fine gold coin as he was, no stamp noremblem of the common mintage that provides for general circulation; he was the elegantcomplicated medal struck off for a special occasion. He had a light, lean, rather languid-lookingfigure, and was apparently neither tall nor short. He was dressed as a man dresses who takes littleother trouble about it than to have no vulgar things."Well, my dear, what do you think of it?" he asked of the young girl. He used the Italian tongue,and used it with perfect ease; but this would not have convinced you he was Italian.The child turned her head earnestly to one side and the other. "It's very pretty, papa. Did you makeit yourself?""Certainly I made it. Don't you think I'm clever?""Yes, papa, very clever; I also have learned to make pictures." And she turned round and showed asmall, fair face painted with a fixed and intensely sweet smile."You should have brought me a specimen of your powers.""I've brought a great many; they're in my trunk.""She draws very--very carefully," the elder of the nuns remarked, speaking in French."I'm glad to hear it. Is it you who have instructed her?"第 155 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网"Happily no," said the good sister, blushing a little. "Ce n'est pas ma partie. I teach nothing; I leavethat to those who are wiser. We've an excellent drawing-master, Mr.--Mr.--what is his name?" sheasked of her companion.Her companion looked about at the carpet. "It's a German name," she said in Italian, as if it neededto be translated."Yes," the other went on, "he's a German, and we've had him many years."The young girl, who was not heeding the conversation, had wandered away to the open door of thelarge room and stood looking into the garden. "And you, my sister, are French," said thegentleman."Yes, sir," the visitor gently replied. "I speak to the pupils in my own tongue. I know no other. Butwe have sisters of other countries--English, German, Irish. They all speak their proper language."The gentleman gave a smile. "Has my daughter been under the care of one of the Irish ladies?"And then, as he saw that his visitors suspected a joke, though failing to understand it, "You're verycomplete," he instantly added."Oh, yes, we're complete. We've everything, and everything's of the best.""We have gymnastics," the Italian sister ventured to remark. "But not dangerous.""I hope not. Is that YOUR branch?" A question which provoked much candid hilarity on the partof the two ladies; on the subsidence of which their entertainer, glancing at his daughter, remarkedthat she had grown."Yes, but I think she has finished. She'll remain--not big," said the French sister."I'm not sorry. I prefer women like books--very good and not too long. But I know," the gentlemansaid, "no particular reason why my child should be short."The nun gave a temperate shrug, as if to intimate that such things might be beyond our knowledge."She's in very good health; that's the best thing.""Yes, she looks sound." And the young girl's father watched her a moment. "What do you see inthe garden?" he asked in French."I see many flowers," she replied in a sweet, small voice and with an accent as good as his own."Yes, but not many good ones. However, such as they are, go out and gather some for ces dames."The child turned to him with her smile heightened by pleasure. "May I, truly?""Ah, when I tell you," said her father.The girl glanced at the elder of the nuns. "May I, truly, ma mere?""Obey monsieur your father, my child," said the sister, blushing again.The child, satisfied with this authorisation, descended from the threshold and was presently lost tosight. "You don't spoil them," said her father gaily."For everything they must ask leave. That's our system. Leave is freely granted, but they must askit.""Oh, I don't quarrel with your system; I've no doubt it's excellent. I sent you my daughter to seewhat you'd make of her. I had faith."第 156 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网"One must have faith," the sister blandly rejoined, gazing through her spectacles."Well, has my faith been rewarded What have you made of her?"The sister dropped her eyes a moment. "A good Christian, monsieur."Her host dropped his eyes as well; but it was probable that the movement had in each case adifferent spring. "Yes, and what else?"He watched the lady from the convent, probably thinking she would say that a good Christian waseverything; but for all her simplicity she was not so crude as that. "A charming young lady --a reallittle woman--a daughter in whom you will have nothing but contentment.""She seems to me very gentille," said the father. "She's really pretty.""She's perfect. She has no faults.""She never had any as a child, and I'm glad you have given her none.""We love her too much," said the spectacled sister with dignity."And as for faults, how can we give what we have not? Le couvent n'est pas comme le monde,monsieur. She's our daughter, as you may say. We've had her since she was so small.""Of all those we shall lose this year she's the one we shall miss most," the younger womanmurmured deferentially."Ah, yes, we shall talk long of her," said the other. "We shall hold her up to the new ones." And atthis the good sister appeared to find her spectacles dim; while her companion, after fumbling amoment, presently drew forth a pocket-handkerchief of durable texture."It's not certain you'll lose her; nothing's settled yet," their host rejoined quickly; not as if toanticipate their tears, but in the tone of a man saying what was most agreeable to himself. "Weshould be very happy to believe that. Fifteen is very young to leave us.""Oh," exclaimed the gentleman with more vivacity than he had yet used, "it is not I who wish totake her away. I wish you could keep her always!""Ah, monsieur," said the elder sister, smiling and getting up, "good as she is, she's made for theworld. Le monde y gagnera.""If all the good people were hidden away in convents how would the world get on?" hercompanion softly enquired, rising also.This was a question of a wider bearing than the good woman apparently supposed; and the lady inspectacles took a harmonising view by saying comfortably: "Fortunately there are good peopleeverywhere.""If you're going there will be two less here," her host remarked gallantly.For this extravagant sally his simple visitors had no answer, and they simply looked at each otherin decent deprecation; but their confusion was speedily covered by the return of the young girlwith two large bunches of roses--one of them all white, the other red."I give you your choice, mamman Catherine," said the child. "It's only the colour that's different,mamman Justine; there are just as many roses in one bunch as in the other."第 157 页 共 391 页原版英语阅读网The two sisters turned to each other, smiling and hesitating, with "Which will you take?" and "No,it's for you to choose.""I'll take the red, thank you," said Catherine in the spectacles. "I'm so red myself. They'll comfortus on our way back to Rome.""Ah, they won't last," cried the young girl. I wish I could give you something that would last!""You've given us a good memory of yourself, my daughter. That will last!""I wish nuns could wear pretty things. I would give you my blue beads," the child went on."And do you go back to Rome to-night?" her father enquired."Yes, we take the train again. We've so much to do la-bas.""Are you not tired?""We are never tired.""Ah, my sister, sometimes," murmured the junior votaress."Not to-day, at any rate. We have rested too well here. Que Dieu vows garde, ma fine."Their host, while they exchanged kisses with his daughter, went forward to open the door throughwhich they were to pass; but as he did so he gave a slight exclamation, and stood looking beyond.The door opened into a vaulted ante-chamber, as high as a chapel and paved with red tiles; and intothis antechamber a lady had just been admitted by a servant, a lad in shabby livery, who was nowushering her toward the apartment in which our friends were grouped. The gentleman at the door,after dropping his exclamation, remained silent; in silence too the lady advanced. He gave her nofurther audible greeting and offered her no hand, but stood aside to let her pass into the saloon. Atthe threshold she hesitated. "Is there any one?" she asked."Some one you may see."She went in and found herself confronted with the two nuns and their pupil, who was comingforward, between them, with a hand in the arm of each. At the sight of the new visitor they allpaused, and the lady, who had also stopped, stood looking at them. The young girl gave a little softcry: "Ah, Madame Merle!"The visitor had been slightly startled, but her manner the next instant was none the less gracious."Yes, it's Madame Merle, come to welcome you home." And she held out two hands to the girl,who immediately came up to her, presenting her forehead to be kissed. Madame Merle saluted this